dent, my head has one in it!

SO, I HAVE THE OFFER, IM NOT SURE. THE PROS OUTWEIGH THE CONS ABOUT 2 TO 1 BUT I STILL SHUDDER AT THE THOUGHT OF MOVING. I LIKE MY HOME, FRIENDS AND FAMILY THAT ARE HERE BUT I LIKE THE LOOK OF A GOOD LIFE IN A GOOD VILLAGE AND A GOOD JOB WITH A GOOD INCOME . WHEN WILL I MAKE THE DECISION TO GET OUT OF HERE? I CANT MAKE MY MIND UP. I THINK YES THEN NO THEN YES THEN NO AND I CANT BALANCE ON ONE ANSWER. FOLLOW MY HEART OR MY MIND? BUGGER ME MY HEAD IS MASHED! PLEASE HELP!

sleep my child, for you are a big baby now.

eventually james has gone into his own bedroom, its the first night tonight and we are both a bit apprehensive i think but i know he'll be ok.
he looks so cute like the big baby that he is!
lets see how it goes

job today, force tomorrow (maybe!)

its official, i had a bright idea and i phoned this strange place called snig hill in sheffield and asked if they wouldn't mind giving me a job.
well, kind of. i go to the south yorkshire police recruitment day later this month to get the application form.
I'm not so sure that being stuck in an office all day is the best thing for me or James so i have taken the decision to move on and find something to do with my life and the police force seemed like a good idea. its working with people, different every day, challenging, similar to a pub but without the beer and for better money. ( i forgot a good thing, the money!!!!)
i'm not blind to the fact that it can be very dangerous, shifts and unsociable hours, mentally and physically draining and it can make you a social outcast to your local landlord but the good outweighs the bad and if nothing else, its a challenge.
i will not know anything for weeks and weeks if i get anywhere at all and if not, its back to the good old days of pubs and beer (looking after it, not drinking it!) but i feel energised that i have made a decision on my future and it's one that will help to create our future as a family.
who knows, its worth a try and if i become a police officer, mike might slow down!!!!!

PUPPY DOG BYE BYE

APART FROM MIKE THERE IS NO ONE MISSING GUINNESS AS MUCH AS ME BUT, AS MUCH AS I HATE TO SAY IT THERE ARE PLUS SIDES.

1. THE FLOOR IS NOT A COVERING OF GINGER HAIR ( HOWEVER IT IS VERY HARD TO MAKE THE HOUSE HAIR FREE)


2. THE POST IS OPENED INTACT AND NOT CHEWED


3. JAMES SLEEPS SOUNDLY WHEN SOMEONE KNOCKS AT THE DOOR AS THERE IS NO BARKING


4. I DONT HAVE TO WATCH ANYONE HAVING A WEE OR A POO IN THE GARDEN (APART FROM MIKE WHEM HE'S DRUNK! WHY DID I MARRY HIM?!!)


5. I DONT GET SLOBBERED ON BY ANYONE WHEN THEY'VE HAD A DRINK (SEE BRACKET COMMENT ABOVE!)

HOWEVER.......

THE DOWN SIDES,

1. MIKE IS A MISERABLE GIT AND I DONT THINK HE'LL EVER GET OVER IT


2. I'LL NOT KNOW IF BILLY BURGALER IS IN THE HOUSE TILL HE HAS LEFT WITH ALL MY STUFF


3. I CANT USE THE DOG AS A BARGAINING TOOL WITH MIKE


4. I MISS HIS CUDDLY SOFT FUR


5. I MISS HIS BIG BROWN EYES


6. I KEEP FORGETTING TO FEED THE CATS AT 7PM COS HE'S NOT THERE TO REMIND ME ITS FEEDING TIME AT THE ZOO

BUT, WHAT DO YOU DO. JAMES IS THE PRIORITY AND GUINNESS IS IN A GOOD PLACE AT ANDREWS BUT IT MAKES YOU THINK THAT PETS ARE REALLY PART OF THE FAMILY AND WE HAVE BOTH HAD OUR LEFT ARMS CUT OFF, ESPECIALLY MIKE.

SORRY DARLING, BUT YOU KNOW ITS FOR THE BEST!

kitchens and doors

so, the kitchen has a floor and the door to the cellar no longer needs to be lifted in and out of position. this may seem trivial to everyone else but after 18 months of stubbed toes and trapped fingers my dreams have come true and mike and his dad have done the floor and hung new does. its brill!!!!!!
sometimes its the little things that count. a finished floor gives me the need to mop and clean. the kitchen is now liveable. james can eat in his funky high chair without me wondering if the funky high chair in question is going to wobble off the existing tiles onto the old floor. i can sweep up and i don't live in 3inches of dog hair(see other posting) and my toes are feeling the difference already as they don't meet the end of the tiles on a regular basis any more!
i am over the moon. i can not describe the feeling i have at the minute, my house is becoming a home at last, as much as mike wants to sell it, and after 3 1/2 years, i can make a cuppa in a fine looking kitchen, finished it isn't but by god is it looking good!

hello

thought i had better get in on the whole blogging, website, thingy bobby doodah thats going on.
unfortunatly because some of have to work and havent got all day to sit around playing on the scarynet (grampa vern!) there wont be much but i'll have a go any way!
oh the joy!